Wednesday, July 13, 2005 @ 8:11 AM
ok, let me be frank, the
band now juz SUX!! the members n the leaders. we dun communicate, n even if we
do, we're not efficient in settling the problems, and i really have no time to
drag the discussion lydat, i have my own things to do n most importantly figure
out a way to pass my a maths n get at least an A2 for all my sciences.
everyday got a pile of hw waiting for me to clear n tests for me to study lorx..
i tried already ok, thinking of the rules n thinking wif yy n selest the drills
thingy.. but we still failed to execute it as a band.
it's been so long le, i
think i'd better say out lorx. most of the problem lies wif the sec 2s bahx..
pontank, late, rude, attitude. some sls complain le lorx, i very vex le la. i'd
already came out wif rules for late comers, n truant cases, but the sec 3s think
no use. den wad got use lorx?? at least i thot of sth n told the band abt it,
rather den i keep thinking diz wun work dat wun work n nv try out at all. it's
not my fault ok sec 3s.. easier said den done, how to make them lyk the band??
we tried to be fun, no punishment n all, den all take advantage, dunno their
limits, we enforced rules still the same thing.. no one take to heart those
rules lorx. hey, pls lorx, put urself in my shoes ok, the stress lvl i'm at
already?? highest in my life lorx. ok, dun tok abt the sec 2s, we sec 3s cant
even execute a plan properly lorx.
went to bk, thot of an
idea to improve discipline, wrote out the advantages n disadvantages.. from 4 to
7++ lorx, i reach home abt 8 gonna 9 le lehx.. den in the end we suppose to go c
tcher today, no one wants to go. one cant find, the other not very interested,
the other 2 say eat 1st den go, it's obvious they wun eat so fast de lorx, it's
lyk they plan not to go le lehx. eat n tok n luff, den i alone there panic,
lunch break gonna over le. WT........................ almost broke out in tears
wen i returned to the e2 table. so pek chek le lorx. den say i inefficient la,
look here PLS, NOBODY IS COOPERATING WIF ME!! it's IMPOSSIBLE TO GET EVERYTHING
RIGHT LYDAT! N BLAME URSELF B4 BLAMING ME. A POT CALLING THE KETTLE BLACK. n how
to get them to cooperate wif me?? if u're so clever u take over me la, i've nv
wanted diz position in the first place.
i've thot of giving up
many times, i'm juz a small fry anyway, i'm juz to conduct them during concerts.
i grad, the band has nth to do wif me anymore le ma, y not i juz concentrate on
my studies wholesale. it's cuz i care ok, n do the ppl out there appreciate wad
i'm doing?? wrecking my brains day n night, thinking abt band, no mood to study,
which is rather foolish of me, my results of 'o' s r at stake, hello?? slp oso
cant slp properly. one more time sth dat has to do wif the band gets on my
nerve, i really wash my hands off their stuff. i have my priorities too. i noe
i'm a failure, giving up in such a short time. but if i've already given my
best, wad more can i do?
-angry, frustrated, n
feeling lyk thorwing everything n breaking them into pieces n giving them each a
slap on their face!!!
